learning sign language?

I don't have a beef with the deaf, but it's hard to learn with a person standing 3 feet from you and looking like she's having a sock-puppet fight with herself.

haha so Donald Rumsfeld is giving the president his daily briefing. He says: "Yesterday, 3 Brazilian soldiers were killed in an accident"
"OH DEAR GOD NO!!!" George W. Bush exclaims. "That's terrible!!" His staff sits stunned at this display of emotion, nervously watching as the president sits, head in hands. Finally, the President, devastated, looks up and asks... "How many is a Brazillion??!"

megaworship

megaworship went great, according to some people. and some say they were tired :P first time we made the 2 hour mark, good stuff. special love to my team, fanching alvin yihui weiqi shirlynn enlin shawn jiayen and God. :D
i really leaned alot on God this time, because alot of things didnt happen until the last minute. i drew my strength from Him too, i was pretty energetic during the megaworship, but now, im drained TOTALLY.
poo.

Just yesterday morning they let me know you were gone

I’ve seen fire and I’ve seen rain
I’ve seen sunny days that I thought would never end
I’ve seen lonely times when I could not find a friend
But I always thought that I’d see you again

Won’t you look down upon me, jesus
You’ve got to help me make a stand
You’ve just got to see me through another day

shoulder talk

haha i just coined a new word.
shoulder talk.
picture a conversation where 2 people are sitting on a curb or something shoulder to shoulder, talking to each other.
you get the idea.

cool

i feel so lost, so confused.
"who isnt?"

waning

when you put your trust in someone, you'd always hope that they would do the same too.
it was great, a wonderful friendship; we were both happy. then for some reason it all just ceased one day and never picked back up. its you you you, ive always been there, ive always messaged you to remind you that i was. but you hardly reply, even when i saw you were down i asked, but you brushed me aside, saying you were over whatever was bothering you but obviously not.
i tried to believe it was the exams, i still would want to but i know its otherwise. and just where is God in all this? ive been asking what to do, keep letting you know that im there or just totally ignore.

either way, you'd never notice. you used to, but i guess now im just a prop, someone you once knew but ah who cares about him now eh. i guess ill never fully let go because i always want to be here for you. you've always known that, but never realised how much it means to me that i care.

haha. bye.

1011

thank you for staying up to wish me:
sandy, sheryl, samsim, joyce, yunqi, edmund, crystal, joan, janice chong, marian, melissa jiang, tina, leanne.

i sent 20+ smses in half an hour, powerful.

those who wished me in the morning and day:
sinyi, xinyi, macdonalds, alvinchew, jill toh, darryl, shermeen shawn len shirlynn, hui xian and markloy.

hahahhaa mark. still using the prepaid card to call people huh! hahaha :D thanks loads dude (i still want your camera when you come back ok :D) and wow macdonalds? haha but thats retarded anyway i cant even remember my pin for my macdonalds thing.

and i now understand why girls like advertising their bday, attention! hahaha. but yes people, please do not buy me gifts. :D and thats not reverse psychology.

(yet somehow i wish she forgot)

camp

camp was great, very prayerful camp. met alot of new people too, cool people haha.
borrowed some books from the library today, two of them are -gasp- sign language books. hahaha, i probably wont read finish as usual :x

3 posts rolled into one

i wrote alot on paper over the past few days, never got down to blogging it. sorry my fans :P

one of the nights i was feeling moody and all, and these words just came into my head and lifted a load off me :) "its very tempting to think that there's no one who cares just because nobody manages to show care the way you'd like them to." yes! and i thought about it and i realised that there is is is alot of people that care :D

i was cleaning up my qudle email and came across this mail, whose identity is secretttttt but you know who you are! (though i think you dont read this blog)
"I love you, Jawn.
I mean that whole-heartedly. Things may be really muddled up for me now, but I know I love you so much as a person, as a brother, as a friend.

I'm sorry for all the times I've let you down."

-warm fuzzy feeling- haha.

and today, these 3 sentences came into my mind:
even though i cant see him, i know Christ is always behind me
ive added new meaning to the word crosshair
they say your hairstyle defines your character; i've defined mine


HEHEHEHE thanks to daddy who did this! :):):)

i will be at camp till saturday :)