what's been happening?

many things!



got my helicopter, Esky LAMA V4. wonderful helicopter, learnt alot from it too, from an aeronautical standpoint. i actually got quite a good deal from it, $160; i saw it in hobby shops for $269 O_O. the manual is even more wonderful; direct translation from chinese to english.



"Basics of helicopter: Unlike refular airplanes with fixed wings, helicopters use rotating wings, called rotor blades. The rotor blades generate lift when they rotate, similar to propeller of airplane. The motor driven rotor blades also introduce twisting force to the fuselage."



hehehe thats actually one of the better parts. anyway, they call a USB cable a 'softdog', for what reason i dont know. well, now my helicopter is broken (the blades, i crashed too many times), including the spare blades are broken. so i've ordered replacement parts :)



apart from that, i've stopped working (since the day my mom passed away), been tuitioning my sister about 3 times a week. she has alot to catch up on :/



been spending some time with my LA too, and my inferior memory just stands out everytime i'm with her haha; i keep forgetting stuff she likes/doesnt like. eh, lousy boyfriend :P i think she has no choice but to stick with me though :D



let's see, i miss evan, i tried to cook sushi and failed horribly, i met up with ron (and brought LA along) to have american club lunch [oh praise God for blue cheese], passed mark my extra picooZ, used up all my 1 month's pay (in less than a month too!), and have so many big fancy ideas limited by my lack of money and singapore's pathetic pool of resource for creativity.



i mean, does ANYONE know where to get wood?! for carpentry or just making a simple photo frame?! at consumer levels! i dont want to buy a forest just to make a photo frame :(



i consumed some books, mostly christian; (spent money there too, christian authors are soooo expensive,) learnt a bit of greek (i cant seem to put sentences together though), attended one class of systematic theology, got my phone repaired, scouted for computer prices...



and i fall deeper in love with my LA everyday :)



the library still bores me; and even the library thinks its boring.

my income is panting as my expenditure is finishing its marathon

hahaha. considering that i'm not working anymore

wishlist:
- ESKY LAMA V4 beginner r/c helicopter ($160-179) [on the way to getting one!]
- R/C trainer USB (from skyhobbies singapore, $35)
- laptop graphics card ($300+-? required for above)

in other news, i have a picooZ to sell, anybody interested? 2 channel r/c helicopter. good for scaring sisters.

wake

on the first day, it's pretty odd, like looking in the coffin and expecting my mom to move around, or open her eyes a little bit the same way she does when she wakes up.

and then you wonder if God's gonna do a miracle

and then you wonder if He can. i mean, He's got alot more work to do if he wants to revive her, especially since she's been embalmed already.
but thats creepy man, waking up in a coffin.

i can see how ancestral worship is so easily accepted now, when worshipping, its so easy to make the focus my mom and not God. when i pray, its so easy to want to pray to my mom, especially since i've seen her and she's more real to me.
and then you do things to please her, like clean the house, hoping she'll be smiling from heaven, but who am i really trying to please? it should be the Almighty.

so weird.

and at the end of it all

my mom passed away yesterday (4 april 07) at 5:15pm, doctors said she'd have anytime between a few hours to a few days to more. she got a few hours; but she saw almost everyone.
her wake will be held from today till saturday afternoon, where the cortege will leave at 1030am.

its hard to cry for me, but i did. i don't even know why, im not even sure if i'll miss her (what's it like to miss someone anyway? there is a void in me, but i'm not exactly thinking 'oh, i will never get to see the way mummy ___________ again)

and reality has slowed down, everything for the next few days'll revolve around the wake, the prep, the cremation. nothing much from the outside world. and it's odd to think my mom is gone, like how people will be cautious to mention mom or something.

but i'm fine, my faith has not been misplaced. matthew 5:4 "Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted."