and at the end of it all

my mom passed away yesterday (4 april 07) at 5:15pm, doctors said she'd have anytime between a few hours to a few days to more. she got a few hours; but she saw almost everyone.
her wake will be held from today till saturday afternoon, where the cortege will leave at 1030am.

its hard to cry for me, but i did. i don't even know why, im not even sure if i'll miss her (what's it like to miss someone anyway? there is a void in me, but i'm not exactly thinking 'oh, i will never get to see the way mummy ___________ again)

and reality has slowed down, everything for the next few days'll revolve around the wake, the prep, the cremation. nothing much from the outside world. and it's odd to think my mom is gone, like how people will be cautious to mention mom or something.

but i'm fine, my faith has not been misplaced. matthew 5:4 "Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted."