abiding

recently God's been guiding me to learn about abiding in Him. but more than just knowing to abide in His word and find pleasure in following God's will, i've also been trying to live in God's love. hmmm, it's been a while since i've had a 'whoa your presence is here' thing, and i've been pursueing that.

honestly i dont really believe that we shouldnt be chasing 'feelings', i believe God manifests his presence, and 'sensing' the presence of God is one way. it's not the only way, and i'm not relying on these feelings for anything; its just the love, the tangible presence to know He is here.

what happens to the initial salvation experience? why does the power of God, the EMpowerment of God, the faith and courage to say 'ALL things are possible with God!!!' including the exclamation marks, fade away after a while? i am chasing after this confidence and level of faith, because i've tasted this honey from the rock and i know i know i know it is good. then when i get it, i will share it because everyone oughts to know that if rocks make honey better than bees..!