i dont know where im going with this, but i think friendships dont matter anymore.
i've held on to my friendships for a very long time, i always thought they'd be there, i always thought it was godly to have friendships. it was! but i just never let God handle my friendships, and i'd get upset when i didnt get it the way i wanted it. another step to total surrender, as far as i know now, i'm at God's feet again, with nothing i'm holding onto on earth. (of course if i could do this, i'd be a saint, so i guess i'm not all surrendered yet)

its been great, the past week or two, i'm starting to get on the same frequency as God again: i don't know what i'm doing right this time, and i dont know what i was doing wrong before, but i get the sense i know where God's headed, and its a good thing to know.

there are changes to effect when we move to SIM, i'm still not happy with the way things are handled in church, and i think the legalism is as my dad would say, an insidious influence. (i learnt this word when he told me not to work after my Os because of influences.) i think all saints should ease up a little and have things more spontaneous. but thats just me, evan says i'm anti-establishment.