when gods collide

you see, my dad brought me to parkway to get a phone for my bday. i wasnt exactly so keen on getting a phone but since i had no better idea, why not? so anyway, i went to the hello shop, and saw that they had a 99 dollar offer for the nokia 6280, which was like.. ok, cool.

then we went to the m1 shop to see if they had any interesting deals (the m1 student plan is better, so i would rather get an m1 line) and saw that same phone, at 98 bucks. they had a test piece, and like when i felt the thing slide, it was the love man. (its a sliding phone btw)

so anyway, i queued up, and halfway thru the queue (it was a long boring queue, they have slow service man) the person told me that the 98dollar offer was over already and she tried to work around it but couldnt

so i was like.. heartbroken man. but its alright.
then my dad told me i should pray about it first, cos they only prayed about the washing machine (we got one, and i must say its fun to watch a front loading machine spin around and foam). so... initially it was already in the back of my head that i shouldnt get this phone, but i ignored it. i mean, logically what can be better!

so since i had the same offer at singtel, i went down and on the way was praying, and eventually it stopped at 'if you allow me to get the phone... let there be... something striking green in the singtel shop'

well there wasnt, even though i was looking like mad hahaha. : (

so anyway i decided to go home, since God said no. we went home, and i've been raving all week about the nokia 6280.

this afternoon i went to bugis, checked out the 3 mobile service providers, and only singtel still had the offer (which ends tomorrow btw) and im like. AHHHHH.

SO, i blocked off the God side of the equation, and wanted to get it. i still had some hesitation because God had earlier said no, but.. darn i want it : P sooo after making up my mind to get it, i went to the singtel shop and after scanning through the terms and conditions of getting that particular deal, i knew i could get it.

so essentially i snooked God when i said 'but hey, if you really dont want me to get the phone, then somehow make some clause appear that disallows me from getting it'.
nahahahah i thought i had it all covered, but anyway, they required my dad to be there in person, or with a letter of authorization. which... sucked.

so i went home, and was like. whyyyyyy i like the phoneeee why cant i have it?
so yes, hi dad, my dad reads my blog. thats why you saw me moody on the couch at night, because i want the phone and the bigger dad wouldnt allow it.

so, 'so' is the word i use the most to start a sentence. someone teach me how to use other.. words.

in the midst of all this, while brooding on the way home, while i was going why why why; i realised that alot of times, when we ask God 'why?', it's because we have our own notions about what's best for ourselves, and God doesnt follow that. so we ask why. i asked why. why isnt a nokia 6280 for me! why! why wont you let me get a pretty chick for a girlfriend before i go into NS so i can make her wait 2 years for me! (i'm just kidding)

i mean, ideally, logically, secularly, the phone of choice with the circumstances, it cant get any better than that. i guess God still knows best :) im not hoping that somehow someone will drop his 6280 and i find it with no way to contact the owner (God forbid that the phone i get should have been dropped by another). i'm not hoping that someone would be selling his phone at a lower-than-supposed rate. i've surrendered, if He doesnt want the phone for me, so be it, His will above mine.